Peaceنموونە

Peace I Can't Understand

Like many, I look forward to New Year’s Day. I love the excuse to dream big. To put the previous year behind me and approach this new one with fresh enthusiasm. But this year I struggled. Last year was a tough one and I found myself questioning whether God IS actually on my side. I struggled to trust, struggled to find peace in the chaos as wave after wave of disappointment, wrestle and pain washed over me. I’ve tried to understand, to bring clarity. What is God doing, and how on earth is He going to bring good out of this mess? But in my desperate search for answers, all I’ve found is MORE anxiety and less and less peace.

Then I found the verses above, and I breathed again… the verses are a beautiful reminder that God doesn’t require us to have clarity on His ways for our paths to be made straight. We are His beloved kids, and just like my kids don’t need to understand how the economy works, or about my job security, or about how to ensure they can eat each night, so we don’t need to understand the big picture of the story God is writing with our lives.

So I breathe again now, and tell Him every detail of my pain. I give it to Him and remind myself that He is the God who cares for me and knows every intimate aspect of my being. And there it is… peace.

Written by REBEKAH ROBINSON