Fatherless Child

There I was, crying on my mother's lap once again, longing for that relationship I never had with my father. I wanted my father so desperately to be a part of my life.  After my emotional breakdown in my mother's lap, I overheard my mother in a tone of frustration on the phone with my father. Thinking in a child-like fashion, I had high hopes that the conversation would change things, but sadly nothing changed. 

As I continued to grow into a young woman I began to see how the lack of my father not being a part of my life shaped how I perceived myself. It also affected my relationships and the men I chose to date. I longed for love and to be seen in a male's eyes as beautiful. I was broken and thought a relationship with a young man would fix me. I would soon learn that God was the only one who could fix me. 

In order for God to move me forward and prepare me to be a wife after His own heart, I had to undergo a change in my feelings and attitude towards my father. I made a deliberate decision to release any negative feelings or resentment towards my dad. I realized that God could restore my broken relationships with my Father, that he could repair what the enemy tried to destroy. I'm grateful to have my relationship with my father restored today. 

 I encourage you to write about what and who specifically hurt you. Who do you need to forgive in order for your heart to heal? Allow peace in the place that your relationship is currently in with the individual(s). It is time to move forward towards your future.

Pray this prayer to help you to move forward.

Father God, I pray that you give me the strength to let go. Let your love overtake me and your peace be with me. I give you the hurt, I give you the pain, and I give you the frustration of them walking out of my life. I give it all to you. You know what is best for me. Help me to show mercy towards those who have wronged me. You said you would forgive our debts as we also forgive our debtors. Starting today, I forgive them and I let them go. In the name of Jesus, Amen.