Day 4: New Morning, New Mercies

After my first miscarriage, I was sad. Heartbroken. I felt weak, and angry at my body. After my second just a few short months later, I was angry. At God. I was downright bitter that He wasn’t fulfilling His promise to me in my timing. Bitter that He would allow me such pain a second time around. Thank God for grace.

Some days you may feel strong and encouraged knowing that death has no hold on you or your family. On other days, however, you may strongly feel the weight of loss and fear you might crumble beneath the weight of an empty crib. No matter what the specifics and no matter where you are on your journey with grief, there is one powerful constant upon which you can rely: God’s amazing grace.

You may be thinking to yourself, “But you don’t know the way I’ve spoken to Him.” Friend, if you knew the things I’ve said to God out of my frustration, you’d know that I understand a lot more about this than you probably think I do. Or maybe you’ve not spent a lot of time speaking to Him at all lately, and fear He’s given up on you. This is the unfair beauty of grace.

Grace is unmerited favor. If you had done anything to deserve it, it wouldn’t be grace. God’s heart is overflowing with love for His children, and He delights in extending grace upon grace upon grace. His grace will be there to carry you through the day that was supposed to have been your due date. It will be there to carry you through every cluelessly insensitive comment, through every birth announcement and baby shower invitation, and every traumatic flashback. There is no struggle or hardship you could ever endure where grace cannot sustain you. There is nothing that grace cannot touch.

God’s grace for you is all-sufficient. Rest in His unending mercy, and remember to give grace to yourself today as well. This pain may be strong, but God is stronger.